This week

Thank to my parents. It feels good to know that somebody is worried, but somtimes you should trust in me. I make mistakes again and again, but I will learn from them.

Thank you Swantje. I like that you are so directly. But I hope you can understand me and what I am someday.

Thank you Isshi, Tashi, Sato and my other friends to be with you at the D'espairsRay concert. I am sorry for my bad mode and behavior.

Thank you D'espairsRay. At the concert I felt free. I hope that Hizumi's voice will be o.k.
Thanks to the Crew too.

Thank you Miyabi, you bring me to smile and give me a little bit power.

I miss the music

I is missing the music of dir en grey and their aura. The feeling what I had was awesome. Kaorus eyes are so beautiful, I love them.



Kyo was unbelievable, his whole broadcast. Wow. I want to see them again. Maybe I have the luck to go to another autograph session of dir en grey. The best will be with my friends kusatta and others.
I miss Ra:IN too. Die.Pata,michiaki and Tetsu - they are love and so funny *smile*


Yesterday, an asian couple was in the lawyer office. They were so cut.

Today I was by a new doctor. Next tuesday the doctor will be taken blood sample from me and I get a 24 hour blood pressure meter. I don't like that thing - I can't do anything how I want. *grrrr*

yours Kaoru

to Miyabi

Hey Honey!

You are my beautiful smiling friend <3

I am very worried about you.
Hope everything will be OK soon.

In the next days I will send you a little present,
hope you will like it.

I miss you so much
(mist ich wein schon wieder)



Ps: In the next days I will write about Berlin from 25.06 and 26.06)

Thanks to...

Thank you to my friends !
I love you all of them!
Thnaks to my old and lost friends too - You where there in the past.
Thanks....

Special thanks to Kyo-chan from Münster.
We are Kaoru's bondagegirls *smile*
I am very happy to know you honey! and your hot cat ^___-
I will do the best to think positiv and get a job to meet you when I like :P
You make me crazy ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ KYOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO


sorry for my poor english XD

A beautiful weekend

Friday: Isshi came to me from Kiel. Isshi is awesome since I know. *smile* Unfortunately, Fiz and Jiggy can't come to me at the same day. Isshi and I have eaten pizza and watched some TV.
Saturday: Fiz and Jiggy arrived at 2 pm. I was happy to met them. I love Jiggy's laugh. :P And Fiz is realy like Miyavi. And if she looked to me with his chibi-eyes I had to be strong, not to fall in love. All the weekend long v///v. Nick from Hamburg came too. He is a very good friend of Isshi, maybe they are in love. I know Nick from Chisaii. He can be realy funny and I like it if he is singing, sweet.
Sunday: Nick rode by train back to Hamburg. Then we are drived bei Fiz's car to Travemünde and talked about our project. I hope it will be real soon. We will make it!!! Fiz did has made a raspberry cake, awesome *Q*. But I can't eat the rest alone. I will ask a friend to help me.
Monday(today): Fiz cooked for us and it was very good. I am sad because they are all away now. First we take Isshi to the train and then drove Fiz with Jiggy to a friend and from there they will drive home. I hope they will have a good trip, without a lot of traffic jams.
I am sorry for my bad mood v.v


I have new friends in my heart. Love you and hope to see you again.

Kaoru