why I am crying?

In the last weeks I hurt so many people because of my stupid words. Sometime I will lose my voice to say nothing but in real I don't want to lose it because I like to sing for myself - it's funny.
I am sorry taht I hurt you. gomen nasai v.v

At the moment my stomach hurts, I don't know why.
Today I watch many PVs from X-Japan. I cryed... I am sorry.

Friday and Saturday I was by Isshi-chan. She is cut but sometimes very strenuou. I like her very much. We started the offical Jills Blue Roses Support at myspace. Visit us!
Time by time we will write more at the site.

Dear Tora of Alice Nine! I am sorry if I hurt you with anywords. I don't know what japanese people think. We are think different from you. So, please don't be angry.
I know you don't read that. Bit I want to write it.

@ Minh: I wish you a good time. you will look sexy in your outfit ;)
I don't want to lose you.


Have a good night everyone
yours
kaoru

Your Universe

Tell me something
When the rain falls on your face
How do you quickly replace
It with
A golden summer smile?

Tell me something
When i'm feelin' tired and afraid
How do you know just what to say
To make
Everything alright?

Chorus:
I don't think that you even realize
The joy you make me feel when i'm inside
Your universe
You hold me like i'm the one who's precious
I hate to break it to you but its just
The other way around
You can thank your stars all you want but
I'll always be the lucky one

Tell me something
When i'm 'bout to lose control
How do you patiently hold
My hand
And gently calm me down?

Tell me something
When you sing and when you laugh
Why do i always photograph
My heart
Flyin way above the clouds?




I have found this song on youtube. It's wonderful, I love it.

I miss you

This week

Thank to my parents. It feels good to know that somebody is worried, but somtimes you should trust in me. I make mistakes again and again, but I will learn from them.

Thank you Swantje. I like that you are so directly. But I hope you can understand me and what I am someday.

Thank you Isshi, Tashi, Sato and my other friends to be with you at the D'espairsRay concert. I am sorry for my bad mode and behavior.

Thank you D'espairsRay. At the concert I felt free. I hope that Hizumi's voice will be o.k.
Thanks to the Crew too.

Thank you Miyabi, you bring me to smile and give me a little bit power.

I miss the music

I is missing the music of dir en grey and their aura. The feeling what I had was awesome. Kaorus eyes are so beautiful, I love them.



Kyo was unbelievable, his whole broadcast. Wow. I want to see them again. Maybe I have the luck to go to another autograph session of dir en grey. The best will be with my friends kusatta and others.
I miss Ra:IN too. Die.Pata,michiaki and Tetsu - they are love and so funny *smile*


Yesterday, an asian couple was in the lawyer office. They were so cut.

Today I was by a new doctor. Next tuesday the doctor will be taken blood sample from me and I get a 24 hour blood pressure meter. I don't like that thing - I can't do anything how I want. *grrrr*

yours Kaoru

to Miyabi

Hey Honey!

You are my beautiful smiling friend <3

I am very worried about you.
Hope everything will be OK soon.

In the next days I will send you a little present,
hope you will like it.

I miss you so much
(mist ich wein schon wieder)



Ps: In the next days I will write about Berlin from 25.06 and 26.06)